Slowing down is wonderful

I love it when you get those rare moments to actually slow down and think.
When the day passes you by and than all of a sudden, YOU can actually be part of the day.
Rather than the day being a part of YOU.
Today, has been non-stop, I haven't had a moment to myself, until now....
So, sitting here to write this is a nice place to be.
I have 7 and a half weeks to go until I bring some-one in to the world, and I want in to come in to the world free of complications.
"The boy" And I are trying to be more open with each other, and I am trying to accept every-thing that he has done in the past, after all, for me to take him back, I need to forgive him for every-thing. I still miss "The Man" And I constantly finding myself comparing him to "The boy" I wonder if I had of met him maybe I would not be comparing so much.
I am always thinking about what might be, when I should be thinking about what is.
Last night, "The boy" And I were discussing what we are going to do after the baby, it was different to have or talk about some sort of plan, my whole life I have been free, I have done alot of travelling and lived in different places my entire life and so has "The Boy" that's some-thing we both have in common (One of the very few things!)
At the moment we live right in the city, in a small 2 bedroom apartment, so we discussed that and whether we should find some-where bigger or some-where out of the city a little bit.
And we also talked about perhaps moving to NYC which is where he is from. And us being the free spirits that we are talked about taking the baby backpacking, Its was really good to talk about all things, Whether they are realistic choices at the moment is another thing.
I do like the idea of escaping again, Its fun to travel and feel the freedom, meet new people, try new thing's and not worry about the daily hassles that surround us, such as work, mortgage, and general blah!
The other thing that happened last night that was nice was "The boy" Told me he loved me, it was the first time he had said that with me actually feeling it!
It was a nice feeling.....
This is all I have for now, I am going to continue posting, It feels nice to voice my thoughts through this medium!